May 10th, 2003


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Okay, so I can't quite fall asleep. That's what happens when you feel like ass and lie around all day.

I really want to go to sleep, I'm tired but these little worries have come creeping into my head.

Family stuff really. Worries that I don't talk to my sister or grandma enough. Well, I don't, I know that. Worries about my mom. Whether we will ever have some sort of bearable relationship, what will happen to her when my sister is gone. Right now my biggest worry is what will happen to her when my sister moves out.

I feel like I should do something, to help somehow but I really don't know that there is anything that I can do. At least right now.

And I really wish that I could leave all my family stuff in a box, put it off to the side for awhile and deal with it after dealing with some other things. I know, it's horrible.

I have more to write but my brain is really rather foggy and I am quite sleepy.

I just wish these worries would get out of my head. I need my goddamn rest!!!!

Also, I haven't read my friends page since Thursday morning, I hope that you all are well. Those of you who left me messages on aol, I'm sorry that I didn't get back to you. I left and fell asleep and forgot it was still on and all. I've been really out of it for most of the day.